I have to get one of those heart monitor things put on for a day.
My health insurance has been canceled because I've reached the magic age of 21, and no amount of being in college is going to help me now.
My car still isn't fixed because I can't afford the parts.
Mom and I are fighting again because she blames everything on me.
I don't have a license, I don't have a car that will pass the inspection to get me a license, and my permit just expired so now I have to take the permit test again.
I have to visit my dad tomorrow and he is going to ask about all these things, to which his responses and superiority complex will drive my self esteem and hope further into the ground.
I haven't worked on any of the school related stuff I wanted to this summer, and I am running out of time and still have no motivation.
I am desperately trying to look on the bright side, but it is very difficult.
Bright side:
We have food to eat (thanks in part to Jackie, who just bought us some)
At least we have a car that works
At least I have a job
I also have AC in this horrible heat
We are managing to pay some of the bills
I've gone this long with an undiagnosed potential heart condition, hopefully I can survive another year
I still have college for one more year, I just have to stop thinking about when it's over
Nest summer will be better, I will find a way to make it work
I'm going to get a cat next year
Things always get better eventually
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Things have a way of working themselves out
I have music, and that is very helpful
Books are good too
Everything happens for a reason

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